a perfect world.
listening to:
mood:
2001-09-03 - 10:35 a.m.
sometimes you don't want to hear certain truths. sometimes you reject hypotheses without testing them first. sometimes you want to just turn your back on uncomfortable notions of other people's opinions. sometimes it�s easiest to gloss over the blemishes in your life in the pursuit of your notion of perfection.
once in a while your world is perfect. you deny the negatives and focus on all the positives. your thoughts are all your own and your introspection comes up with nothing but bliss.
Then other times, you hear or read certain truths or opinions or hypotheses and they present stinging realities. They come in the window, and creep around your mind and you begin to question your perfect world. You begin to doubt your convictions, your beliefs and realize your perfect world is a construction of what you want it to be. Paranoia.
And sometimes when this happens, you want to disappear completely. You turn to your escape routes. They pacify the anxiety of uneasiness, and let you, once again return to your construct of a perfect world temporarily.
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