retribution. i'm not as tough as sarah connor. i actually feel heart broken and when you are heart broken you fluctuate between complete and total despair to finding the positive lessons learned, and oh, 'how much stronger you will be because of this.' so. i cry some. i laugh some. and i know time will heal all. it's funny how things work. when things come around to show you who is boss, and you can't get away with breaking hearts without having your own broken. i feel remorse for the people i have hurt. i feel it now more than ever before. i assume because i can empathize. and then-- there is the part where you feel like such an idiot. 'god, i am so stupid, how did i let this happen? how did i let myself go down this path? why?'